Sorry about the hiatus...
I guess I've been avoiding this blog because I don't really feel grounded these days. It's not just the blog. I've been late to return phone calls, neglecting house chores, and well, basically living in fear of human contact.
I think I'm afraid that I'll open my mouth and actually confide in someone- really confide in someone.
How am I going to make it all work? How will we provide for two kids? When will we ever find time to breathe?
I just feel like I'm on the brink of a breakdown. And when I get this way, I just want to sleep the days away.
Tonight, though I was feeling worn down and pathetic, I went and grabbed a pumpkin and decided we'd do some carving . It was funny how all of my worries seemed to melt away once I saw that Tim and Audrey were so 'into' the activities. I mean, I realized at that moment that: we are all healthy, we are all together, our parents and siblings are doing okay, we have jobs, we have friends (although we still manage to be horrible friends ourselves). Everything is okay.
Now, this doesn't mean that I'll no longer worry. It just means that tonight, it was put on hold for a good while.
It was nice to live in the moment.
And didn't Audrey do a great job carving those pumpkins?